It's a boy!

Max took me to the doctor and we found out I'm having a boy, so I guess I'm going with the name Oliver James.

Just need to keep it a secret for 1 more day...

After the ultrasound I guess it wouldn't be as bad if they found out.... it would still suck, but I want the ultrasound first. Also I'm afraid that they'll think that Max is the dad. I mean I hang out with him ALL THE TIME! But we're just friends, although Holly thinks he likes me...

Baby stop kicking me!

Baby kicks all the time now, it's woken me up, or surprised me during school and it drives me crazy. I don't understand the women that enjoy being pregnant, I really don't. I hate it so far and it will only get worse. I'm  lucky that at 19 weeks my stomach isn't as full as some peoples had been at 19 weeks but it is starting to show. My parents will find out soon.

Halloween costumes

It's hard to find any that fit, they're too tight, and yet the maternity costumes are for super pregnant women, so they're too big. Ugh... lets see if I can find one that fits.

Stupid school uniforms!

So all the schools in Cleveland have uniforms (because Cleveland is ghetto) and it's really hard to get blouses that fit, I started wearing babydoll tops and they thretended to suspend me! Just for wearing a babydoll top! I mean I doubt that gang members would ever wear a babydoll top. So now I just wear really baggy sweaters. Ohio public schools are going to the dogs.

Names

So I finally decided on names
For a boy: Oliver James, or Cole Justin
For a girl: Josefina Rose or Gabrielle May

I'm getting an ultrasound soon

My bestfriend ever (let's call him Max - we've been best friends since preschool even though I'm a girl and he's a guy) is helping me pay for it. He has a job and his parents are kinda rich, I should get a job soon. Anyway he's paying for the ultrasound which is super sweet, and they're not cheap. So soon I'll find out if I'm having a boy or a girl (I'm kinda hoping for a girl even if I won't be keeping it). The appointment is Monday after school.

Remember you're eating for 2 people! (+ cravings)

My best friend (let's call her Holly) is making me eat a lot. "Remember you're eating for two people." She said, she's one of the few people that knows my little secret. Although honestly Holly eats enough for three people and she's not even pregnant. So she gives me her extra food at lunch and that way my parents won't get suspisious from all the food I'm eating.
Also what were your cravings when you were pregnant. My cravings are for Cookie Dough Ice Cream (it's not even my favorite kind but now I can't get enough), Ham and Cheese hot pockets, and chocolate oreos.

Where does all my chapstick go?

I lose chapstick all the time. And even when I know where it is I forget it at home and I am stuck with dry lips at school. Ugh!

What this blog is....

At a wild and crazy party this summer I was drugged and raped, a month later I learned I was pregnant. This is a blog about my struggles being pregnant and hiding my baby bump from everyone (it's starting to show).

Taylor is my fake name, I would likw to remain annonymous.